I worked for a pain management doctor before I was told I couldn’t work anymore. We did procedures. Laid the patient face down on the table and poked and prodded, usually, along the spine. Often the needles were large. Over a half of a year, I saw people react very differently to these “procedures.” Some winced. Some screamed. Some cried. Some didn’t. I would be lying if I said the reaction of a patient didn’t lead me to some assumptions of their overall character.
This week I had my own “procedure,” a bone marrow biopsy and aspiration. The biopsy cuts away a piece of bone, the aspiration sucks up some of the liquid marrow. This is the second time in the past eight months I’ve undergone one of these. The first time was not even 24 hours after my initial emergency room visit. There wasn’t much time to really think about it. I remember it was painful but I couldn’t tell you about the pain. Nor could I recount specific emotions before, after or during. It has blurred into the pile of blurs that come along with any overwhelming experience.
This time I got to prepare for it. My disorder is no longer a surprise and neither are the tests needed. They gave me a packet weeks ago, telling me precisely what had to be done. Monday, March 1st, was to be a bone marrow biopsy and aspiration day. Monday came and I sat in the waiting area and waited for my name to be called out.
And it happened. “Sheehan,” a woman yelled.
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